recently i really donno whats going on
how can i pass through this month is still a mystery..
another thing that bug me.
when am i going to study korean, arggg
haiz i have been trying tagalog, trying hindi
but yet my korean. no nothing
I LIKE HIM
*to a point that i too am confuse*
this is very very bad
"liking someone doesn't mean you have to be lovers, sometimes you just have to be friends.."
i still have not done jj's bthday post
and with the xmm post
how come, i want 48 hrs in a day
and everyone is leaving
i donno why i am ranting now, let me think about my fandom once again before i sink too deep
i like him really cos of his clumsiness, him being dorky, his rubbish, the way he sings*sometimes out of tune* he is so human and imperfect with all the smoking, tattoo, drinking, whatever scandal, cam-whore
though i never really like the overly expose part and know not alot of people like him too *i never like him before this and i wished i never liked him really, he has always been just an idol to me no others, i really wish i am a anti so i won't get affected by anything related to him*
and its true he don't look good sometimes but even for Hollywood star they too have times whereby they don't look good too. no one is perfect *but its really horrible to comment that the one you like look better than others and others are ugly* <- if i post such comments would i be bias
and fans should really stop posting comments about "the not suppose to be commented" on a article that don't contain the not suppose or even compare * i am tired reading such comment, really but i can choose not to read them too*
i just want him to have a smooth sailing career till he is old *need not always be the top just no accidents, not drama, not bad things*,marry someone he really likes, stay with his members *like he always wanted*, improve his music abilities *composing, instrumental and bring better performance*, be a good father to his kids *although the part on having a son at the end don't really make sense*, have a good health *i doubt that due to his excessive smoking and drinking, hopefully his future wife could do something*, i just want him to be happy to stay as what he is now, to remain strong, i would really want to see him on stage even if he is old *could i still be a fan of his and whatever he is into*
i donno why in this fandom, i see lots of nice and not very pleasant comments and also those that kept wanting them to be the top, its like they deserve it, but others also deserve it. give others a chance. if you are hurt, others would also be hurt too *not that i don't understand you or something*
don't compare your love with others/ or even my love for somebody *you may think what you did is great but others have done even greater things that you could not imagine*
i have never say i did so and so things for him, he don't need to know and won't want to know too *there so many people that are fans* just like the black cranes if it goes to him, then let it be, if it don't, i don't care too..
most fans have someone they like and love is always blind *no one gets enough of the person they like, thats the reason i rather choose to be anti, but it also made me blind sometime*
but seriously i don't get some who continuously praise their idol till he/she is like god/goddess
even i don't do that *i only spent my time being a anti, to you know who*
i mean everyone have different people that they like and no point bashing other just to make another look it
its a useless move *i am sorry for bashing the person i like, guess my expectations are too high*
but i really don't like the ideal of bashing others or commenting on how bad others look
if people choose to do that just make silent comments like that no one would kill you
everyone is bias in his/her own way *i am* but i love the others too.
although the other members are rank lower *in my own ranking system*, i also give positive comments about them and i really grow to like them even though they are not the top, i never really hate anyone yet not even other groups *only dislike and don't watch*
this is getting too far and too much, i really should start ignoring all these comments and move on, i just want to be in a fandom that is peaceful, just me, him and the group *close up in a fantasy world, but i think such things would never happen *although i wish i could know him more*
i don't know what i am writing, everything is so in a mess but thats how i am feeling now.
if i can do it once more can i not be a fan
You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
hiaz, recently everyone is into voting
donno why.. is it so important to win?
its really annoying like when people put "we are behind, vote..."
not everything has to be no. 1 in life
maybe its just me that don't like voting
popularity polls = useless and waste time
i know fans what to support them but there is other ways in doing so
not just voting in this, like the recent yahoo vote
if you are good, you are good
you don't need polls to prove that you are that good
2008 was a good year so is 2009 really probably the first half of the year..
for the trio, i really hope the best for them ^^
be it for the group or for their own activities (like MAMA, be it a good or bad move)
its really time for them to think about their own future
(kjj go find a gf when you have time, the poor guy is really desperate)
i don't think i am in the right position to say anything
but from a non fan to a fan to a "crazy" fan (i think so cos i want to go korea to stalk them)
and to openly admit i am a fan (i have never done something like that to any idol groups before)
they lead me into the world of kpop (big bang, ss501, 2NE1...)
let me hear nice and wonderful acapella, jpop and kpop,
2 words for the five of them "THANK YOU" despite my constant ranting that they are not in perfect pitch esp you know who... i see your effort and your hard work
the sweat and tear shade during performances and concert, i believe its real and not just an act put up to satisfy the fans
even though times are bad, hang in there and continue to believe in yourselves (i really hope you do) don't give up or lose yourself
i believe that you as grown ups are able to make better decisions for yourselves, your future as well as for your dream
even though i say, i am on the verge of giving up hope but whatever you what or do,
i would support your decisions.
"time would tell"
(like some yunho fan claim, haiz i really do have problems with yunho fans donno why??)
** maybe i should get a rest and not follow this fandom too often
but i am really scared that more and more bad news would appear if i am not online
haiz...kjj you are the first and last that brighten my day with your craziness and 4D personality while at the same time make me worried in the midst of all my project and exams when all these things happen.
Really i want to see you smile again, real smile not the "lifeless" ones you give during hp conference.
even though cassies number drop the are just numbers without me inside
on the bright side, i have finally completed uni ^^
hopefully i could graduate this dec and find a job !!
going to sydney tomorrow for a rest from studies and exam + i need takoyaki and bubble tea
seriously deprived, i hope to go back to singapore one day and everyone is leaving for summer break leaving just me and the flies in canberra
watch heaven's postman but don't understand a single thing :(
p.s i think its true that people tend to cherish things that are leaving or gone
just my rantings!
what the f*** is wrong with SME.. f*** you
how could they, after losing the trial push all the blame to jaechunsu and crebreu
after jaecuhnsu won, you don't allow them to work, what is this being childish just
cos you did not win, then throw rumors and hold press conferences..
what is this !!!!!! playing dirty and yet ask compensation do they even have the money...
what the hell is wrong with them and dragging homin and their parents
that ultra low, i really think sme sucks big time..
is this how you manage a company, do something more useful dude.
spent more time managing your talents like zhang liyin, CSJH rather than just complaining.
you care for fans spending money (for MAMA) ya, right you throw fans into this shit....
more like if fan spent money on MAMA you don't get any of the money..
if you say that information cannot be release cos it is trade secret,
but you are a bloody hell listed company !!
you gave the trio a dateline, what is this, pushing them to a corner and threatening them
you keep ranting about how much money you lost and act as though the victim is you..
F*** off, jaechunsu at least is considerate to say that the victims are we fans,
please you should learn from them
and whatever homin's father say, your sons are not the only victims.. get it clear
one of them is working on his drama and another is starting so they have a job not like su
he has no project at all.. what the f*** is wrong with all of you
and why all of a sudden come out from no where and blame the trios
can't the court say something about all this..
basket, i am really really fed up, sme you stuck big time f***ing retards that watch too much korean drama and are all drama queens !.... you f***ing ass
ranting cos i am really really pissed and need to study for the coming exams....
bloody hell !!!!!!!!!!! i want dbsk back, all five of them !
i am not siding anyone, i don't really care if this is the end of my fandom
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
p,s some parts of the quiz is quite true but some are not very, i highly doubt those